So here I am again writing whatever is on my mind.
Every minute of every hour of every day I kept on missing you. But what is there to miss? Those little precious moments that only I remembers? Those beautiful smile that only I sees? Those sweet little gestures that only I feels? But all of those were in the past. At this very moment, nothing shall be missed for nothing happened. Those were dreams that I can only see. When I thought that you will always be around, I suddenly realized that sooner you will be gone. I was too excited to allow happiness overcome myself that I forgot that these were reminder of how a dream looks like. You were a dream that is about to come true and in an instant, I woke up realizing that “We had our once upon a time and not a happy ever after”.
Nang mabasa ko post ni Mark (vox ng arcadia), mas naliwanagan ako. Bakit ko nga ba tinatago tattoo ko? I have three reasons why.
First. Dahil sa discrimation. Hindi pa rin kasi open-minded ang karamihan ng mga Pilipino. Marami paring nagsasabi na kapag nalaman nilang may tattoo ka, “Ano yang pinaggagawa mo sa katawan mo?!” “Adik ka na”. No. That’s not it. It’s a form of art. This is how I express myself. Kasi, sa maniwala kayo o sa hindi, mahiyain ako. Hindi ako sanay na nagsasabi ng nararamdaman ko sa ibang tao. I keep, if not all, most of my problems to myself.
Second. To express how or what I felt. My tattoo design is ‘sun and moon’. Two faced. Hahaha. Funny. Pero maraming nagsasabi na may double personality daw ako. Mej totoo. Minsan, madalas, biglang magsshift mood ko. Magiging ibang tao ako. Hindi naman kaplastikan kasi madalas nagiging maldita ako after. Yun. Yun lang.
Lastly. To support Tattoo industry. They are, most of the time, judged by people who don’t understand each artist’s (and even those who got inked) reason why they entered the industry. Hindi dahil sa mga adik sila. Some might use those illegal drugs, but so what? As long as they are responsible. Judge those who do bad. Those who are bad. Those who stole money to benefit their own. Few appreciates tattoo artists. And I want to be one of those who understands them.
May kanya kanya tayong dahilan sa bawat ginagawa natin. At sana maintindihan tayo ng mga taong nakapaligid satin nang walang sapilitan. Sana maintindihan nyo ko. Sana. :)
How would you know if he’s the right one? Through the signs? Through your dreams? Nothing is certain unless something happens.
He may seem to be that guy you dreamed of plus he’s not committed to any girl. Except to his family. And friends, I’d say.
He stares like you’re the only girl he sees. He touches you that made you want for more. Unfortunately, that’s all. No more lets-go-to-the-next-level thingy.
And on the following day, he ignores you without giving you a single hint why. And all you can remember is his last words to you “I am not ready yet.”
Eventhough you want him that bad, you can’t do anything. He too can’t do anything. Better to give up while it lasts. While you were both unhurt. Say goodbye while you are still both inlove. While both of you have those good memories. Say goodbye and be free.
So for the last time, I’ll say this. Goodbye, my love. See you soon.